Saturday, January 3, 2009

It has been a strange time for me.

Friends wife diagnosed with cancer and watching from afar as she not only seeks to touch the robe of Christ she has grabbed ahold and priased him at every chance she gets. Another friend getting married I am very happy for him he really deserves to be happy. I have seen people angry with God not realizing he is reaching out to them just begging them to reach across the gap and take ahold of Him. I seem to finally be passing into the age when our childrens generation are beginning to get married and soon will be starting their own families I hope the best for Jonathan and Amiee on May 15.
What do I want in 2009 im almost afraid to say it because it may happen but I want to be at a point that when God calls im there ready to do as he asks. I want to be able to not be so relient upon myself but be relient on God and his timing and his place. Maybe this will be the year I will learn how to live in this world without being "of" this world.

Happy New Year may the Lord Bless you in all you travels.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

I am very sad.

I have now started this post 3 times and I can't put into words how I feel, but a very dear friend was diagnosed with cancer a month ago and went through 6+hrs of surgery today. I so want to rejoice for her and Tim but I am sad. My prayer for them is that God will wrap his healing hands around their family and hold them so close that every breath they take can be felt in Gods palm.

Amen.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Sometimes you get something worth while forwared to your inbox.

My Uncle Ed is my moms oldest brother and he has embraced technology better then anybody I know of his age (he's 68) and he send me all kinds of stuff. Some of it isn't worth the electricty used to send it sometimes he comes across some pretty neat stuff. This is what I got today in my daily email from my Uncle and it does suprise me a little but it did make me a little weepy.

It's just a small white envelope stuck among the branches of our Christmas tree. No name, no identification, no inscription.
It has peeked through the branches of our tree for the past 10 years or so.

It all began because my husband Mike hated Christmas --oh, not the true meaning of Christmas, but the commercial aspects of it.
The overspending, the frantic running around at the last minute to get a tie for Uncle Harry and the dusting powder for Grandma --
the gifts given in desperation because you couldn't think of anything else.

Knowing he felt this way, I decided one year to bypass the usual shirts, sweaters, ties, and so forth.
I reached for something special just for Mike. The inspiration came in an unusual way. Our son Kevin,
who was 12 that year, was wrestling at the junior level at the school he attended.

Shortly before Christmas, there was a non-league match against a team sponsored by an inner-city church.
These youngsters, dressed in sneakers so ragged that shoestrings seemed to be the only thing holding them together,
presented a sharp contrast to our boys in their spiffy blue and gold uniforms and sparkling new wrestling shoes.
As the match began, I was alarmed to see that the other team was wrestling without headgear,
a kind of light helmet designed to protect a wrestler's ears. It was a luxury the ragtag team obviously could not afford.

Well, we ended up walloping them. We took every weight class. And as each of their boys got up from the mat,
he swaggered around in his tatters with false bravado, a kind of street pride that couldn't acknowledge defeat.

Mike, seated beside me, shook his head sadly, 'I wish just one of them could have won,' he said.
'They have a lot of potential, but losing like this could take the heart right out of them.' Mike loved kids -- all kids -- and he
knew them, having coached little league football, baseball, and lacrosse.

That's when the idea for his present came. That afternoon, I went to a local sporting goods store and bought an assortment of
wrestling headgear and shoes and sent them anonymously to the inner-city church. On Christmas Eve, I placed the envelope on the tree,
the note inside telling Mike what I had done and that this was his gift from me. His smile was the brightest thing that year and in succeeding years.
For each Christmas, I followed the tradition --one year sending a group of mentally handicapped youngsters to a hockey game,
another year a check to a pair of elderly brothers whose home had burned to the ground the week before Christmas, and on and on.
The envelope became the highlight of our Christmas. It was always the last thing opened on Christmas morning, and our children,
ignoring their new toys, would stand with wide-eyed anticipation as their dad lifted the envelope from the tree to reveal its contents.

As the children grew, the toy s gave way to more practical presents, but the envelope never lost its allure.
The story doesn't end there. You see, we lost Mike last year due to cancer. When Christmas rolled around, I was still so wrapped in grief
that I barely got the tree up. But Christmas Eve found me placing an envelope on the tree, and in the morning it was joined by three more.
Each of our children, unbeknownst to the others, had placed an envelope on the tree for their dad.
The tradition has grown and someday will expand even further with our grandchildren standing around the tree with wide-eyed anticipation,
watching as their fathers take down the envelope. Mike's spirit, like the Christmas spirit, will always be with us.

May we all remember Christ, who is the reason for the season, and the true Christmas spirit this year and always.



God Bless! -- pass this along to those friends and loved ones who you know are the givers who understand the true meaning Christmas.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

A Date Which Will Live in Infamy

In the 110 minutes of the attack on Pearl Harbor, our forces suffered 2,403 killed in action, 1,178 wounded in action, 640 that were never accounted for; plus, 188 planes lost, 158 damaged, and every battleship of the Pacific Fleet, eight, crippled or sunk plus other ships. There are not many memorials in this country that I would have trouble visiting but there are a couple of exceptions, one of those being the USS Arizona Memorial in Pearl harbor. Even though I am only 40 yrs old I have a friend that had an older brother die on the Arizona. Maybe it's sort of a tribute to the fallen men on the ship but it still "bleeds" bunker oil from it's full oil bunkers if you ever visit you will see a small oil slick on the surface of the water moving slowly away from the ship. There are also former sailors from that ship that have their ashes scattered at the site as a final tribute to thier fallen brothers so that they may be buried with thier shipmates.
So today we remember and salute the US soldiers and sailors that gave there lives on that Sunday morning so many years ago.